The term ‘broken hearted’ doesn’t seem enough to describe the agony you go through when it happens to you. It’s more like someone pulverized your heart into dust slowly with a hammer.

I fear that I am too stubborn for my own good and that someday people will eventually give up on me.

I have this off button that I can tune out unwanted feelings when it gets in the way of my daily life. Convenient isn’t it? But the feelings don’t disappear, it just stays in the corner of my heart for awhile and when I leave it alone for too long, it starts to grow and when those feelings hit me again, they hit me harder than ever before. 

Loving and being loved. This has always left me feeling confused and uncomfortable. I didn’t understand the concept of love as much as other people did. How do you know when you’re in love? How do you know if someone loves you? I think too much and I react over the smallest things and my timing has always been incredibly bad. These habits of mine has got me believing dating is such a hassle. I read this quote somewhere that you can’t make someone love you but rather you should just be someone that people can love. The problem with that is I don’t know how to be someone that people can love. I just know how to be me and past experiences have confirmed that being me was never enough.